Hina's Simp

Cupping her hands around the stick, blocking it out of view for all but her, Chloe tilts her head down and looks over at the color quickly. Blue? I wonder who else got this color. Chloe darts her eyes around the room to peer over each of her teammates, trying to catch a glimpse of everyone else’s color. More importantly, trying to see specifically who she got paired with without letting anyone else know that they got paired with her. Without much success in this task, she lets out a soft sigh before anyone speaks: “Uh, guys, I got…blue”. Spoken under her breathe, just above a mumble. Maybe no one heard her, even if she was more worried about who she paired with than letting someone know that she blue. Quickly, he lifts her hand holding the blue stick just above her head, bending her elbow outward as if she was distancing herself from her stick, from any position that involved being paired with someone and doing something that involved someone else. But that was inevitable, she was a part of this team, and she wanted to be here even if her demeanor said otherwise. She just sat, curling herself down into the seat while her arm stood slightly above her; Chloe wanted people to see the stick she had, she wanted to try and make herself known to the group more than just the quiet one. Chloe hid behind her blushed face, feeling both nervous and embarrassed. At this point, it was a waiting game until the other person who picked blue came forward. And Chloe was one who fell more into her embarrassment the more time attention was drawn to her.

Fuck you, in like a platonic, loving way.

I figured I'll put mine since I /think/ I finished most of what I wanted

I'd be interested. Probably would want to take up Pendulums. Could be fun.

I already expressed my joy for you just making this; art is already a place of expression, and the icon is a rather "strange" point of identity. Strange not because it is outlandish but because it represents a shifting identity on a virtual level. It is one where we chose to recognize ourselves and our own form of expression, that is closely related to how we are feeling and how we desire to be. The internet is cool in this perspective, as our closeted identity is almost out in the open for people that we "select" to be around. So, this already is great sentiment to how much your inwardly state becomes an outward acknowledge of that. I really just think that it is cool that you wanted to create something that took more of a self-drawn form of expression. That is why I want to give you props; not because you're are anymore or less special, but you're taking a step for yourself in expressing yourself outwardly. It is something to be proud of, more of a personal statement and something that deserves more steps forward. The icon itself does what you wanted and provided some position to grow as an artist, or as someone who finds new places to express yourself instead of trying to understand it. It is a form of "acceptance", as well. But I don't know if I am pushing a grander message than necessary or anything. Really, I think the biggest point in this is: What are you looking to change if you were to trying something similar? I mean change as a movement forward; What do you want to try outside what you already attempted and how do you think that you improve this piece or another attempt at something similar? It is a fine step. Next is for you to explore more techniques to see how results measure up, and if there is any way for me to help you, I am curious.

goodshit.

Winter is my hina love triangle husbando, even if I am the top dog in that relationship. krow is the husbando of my life.

Did you finish translating?

Can I request a lewd?

When I did coke, misquotes tended to hate being around me more often than not. It was weird. Lovebugs, however, never gave a shit; their need to get laid was way more important than whatever else was going on.

This is such a lame and reductive answer. Passion is a fucking joke if you do not have objects of passion to reach. Boredom does enough to get people going, to do something rather than nothing and that is enough to be "passionate" but not moved. Most of the legends are born and destined to be that role, instead of being passioned and driven to do so. It was a deterministic role that they played instead of an motivated one. The passion was not of their own, and there was no passion to reflect exactly that. It was a role that people had to reach and were destined to become, even told of their destiny to become what that figure was. Passion does shit if you're comparing yourself to historic legends and anything else. The drive for innovation was not of passion; It was of survival and making that survival easier. Look at most historic figures, those who were passionate were not the ones who were breeding innovation. They were the ones causing revolution and drastically ruining, directing the lived world rather than trying to innovate within. Hitler, Kan, Putin. Even most thinkers were not passionate about their findings, but rather lost within the lived world and instead changed through their nature of survival to make the world better for themselves at places were it was radically wrong. If you were passionate about something, you wouldn't be talking about passion being the motivator. It is connotative in use by people who lack proper objects of passion and fall back on the abstract as justification to change, but does nothing but get to the net objective instead of pursuing proper change. This answer itself reflects the reductive nature of you idea. You are not passionate enough to fully understand yourself, so you fall to the word itself to provide meaning and excuse for the objectives you attempt to reach. There is no passion behind your ideology, only the conform it being able to put it in such a buzzword that people use to advocate for themselves instead of doing something that is bigger than "passion".

I don't know what the hell this question is asking; you're using the notion of ideal completely wrong. The focus of these references, from a personal to congruent means, is an ideology. There is nothing ideal about these, while the purpose of the ideal is a notion of reach. Anything that may be considered ideal has a figure to reach, rather than to live by. It almost narrates the individual growth to reach something, to reach the ideal, where ideologies cement the lived person in their own reality to become a manifestation of what their ideal may reflect. Sorry, this is a huge topic that I try to personally be understanding of. I have a personal stance with this "means of life" and the wrongful recognition of it leads to some destructive means of living, that ultimately reflect the ideology rather than the ideal. Now, if we look at things; From my place in the lived world, I want things to only become better for myself and at that point, what it to be the case for someone else to want. Though, this is not easy to understand and I am only able to try to understand my place a little bit closer. A girl I fell in love with radiated something within me that could only be looked as a spiritual connection. I had to find the meaning of my spirituality, only to find the area of pursuit that I have come to understand - how and what I do to understand the curiosities I hold, to make sense of my place and be able to communicate that to the people who lead me to those curiosities. The muse - the object of desire that stands beyond the physical or the symptoms of romantic love, beyond that of sex and companionship. I want to be inspired by those around me but the idea of the object is what motivates me rather than the lived object itself. Actively, the muse is only a distance between myself and the desire of inspiration to be something much more than me. There is no vehicle necessary to practice the symptoms of love, or to even experience them. The abstractions that reflect through the syndrome, and come with the practice, are themselves abstracts that are projected to the object which births the spiritual nature and the syndrome. The muse is what I seek, a perfect reflection of all I want from someone and experience through someone, that what I do not understand about myself right in front of me and lead my to attempt to understand them. Love and faith go hand and hand here, God being another idea of the muse yet for another type of love. After that, it is my knowledge and practice of what I learn and come to understand. Curiousities take many forms, but as Malcolm X has stated: "I could spend the rest of my life reading, just satisfy­ing my curiosity - because you can hardly mention anything I'm not curious about". Easily, the best tool in the world to not only take advantage of for the purpose changing the world, the self, and even experiencing more than anything else is the book. I contest the idea that the book, text, literature, are some of the most necessary tools to understand and learn about the self, to become the ideal and change the ideologies insomuch as they reflect the ideal. Not only reading about curiosities, but read other people who have read those curiosities. People who define the world through a text only recognize their place, but those who question the text and come to understand it recognize the outer-space of their place and the spaces that take shape. Knowledge and practice through the cultural phenomenological and ontological approaches of books redefine a person. As such, it is also that with the political measures of myself. Resistance is a form of activism that only redefines the space of an individual to feel safe and later conform the the newly redefined space. Revolution is the event of change, one that radically shows the imperfects within collapse rather than practice. I desire a world where the private realm is not the public realm and the public realm is not the political realm. Arendt's classicism of the roman government is a return I want to experience, whereas the Marxist capital is the only understanding that seems to make sense. And in making sense, it is also the blank space of revolution and clearing that change can occur through. Slow, concerned reactionism is not the approach to correcting the world and the place for individuals to exist. I have ideals I want to reach and approaches on how those ideals can be reached, while being in no place to cause such changes until I fully understand what the motives might cause and change. There are some ideologies that I think everyone should have: a political frame of reference, a motive for love and change, and a spiritual backing that cements the individual. My political frame of references is dictated by the ideal reality I want to exist in and the means of how such a reality would come, instead of what policies and forms would govern this reality. My motive for change and love is that of a muse, a projection of an object of desire which leads to attempt and understand myself rather than trying to make a "relationship" work. A spiritual backing is the connection I have to others and through that a commonality in the idea for betterment, for everyone to be happy. This is pursued by western religious practice, for sure, and I am a Christian by that rite, but it is still only a figure that exists because of the abstract commonality that people come together through.

We're not even ready for June to come, fuck outta here with Halloween. This year is already scary enough.

Thanks, man. Appreciate the read!